2015, when I look back... was so surreal. When
some of other people’s years surrounds with tragedy, or simply flat, I start to
afraid mine might be too merry. I graduated LL.M. without even planning. I am
determined with my expertise – which is (thankfully) really a vacant place
badly needing someone who wanna work their ass to take care of so much shit. I went
to Alaska. On an RV. With amazing friends. I taste wilderness at its best. I
went to NOLA and saw the Jazzfest. I readjusted to Indonesia way too smoothly. Escalated my relationship with my BF, sharply. Back to work without even had to look. I gained more control on some peoples’
mouths on the media. I start an apprentice for my issue. I restrart – catching
up with work, new networks, new issues, got promoted – I feel fulfilled. Got a fun,
easy big sidejob. I did a nice portion of donation and care – although these
things are never enough. Did couple of gigs with my band. Visited mom and dad
more often than any other year.
Hey wait... Was this even
a year? Did I forgot something?
To recall, last year, on Dec 31, 2014, my reflection in summary was actually a
bit shitty:
“Spent the year without meaningful community service. Missed
the church. Took too many guided tour and too few DIY trip. Didn't contribute
much that affect my country's environmental problems. A year of achieving so
much in fact - yet, it does not guarantee a great satisfaction. A lesson that
summitting a 5,592 masl can be less satisfactory than failing and get lost in a
2,000 masl; that a month of community service in a remote island is much more
fulfilling than a year of prestigious scholarship in a cool country. It's not
about not being grateful, but about knowing the things that look cool in the
public eyes might not be the things that make you happy the most. Happy new
year 2015, may Lord make us more useful for those who need us next year :")”
And here I am now. Still useless as I was, but getting back
to my home country and took part in all of the drama (and screw my 3 months
holiday plan because working right away on the 3rd day of my arrival looked
more exciting – somehow) makes me feel slightly better. I got ambitions
unchecked on my checklist – that I wanted to throw a neat litigation for the
water quality, or simply take the bar test, or having my precious vacation, and
so on. I had my heart torn apart in the end of the year by some shitty decision
that was announced right in front of my eyes. But that’s okay, I know exactly
what I want to do for the next year. I have targets
– real targets, and I can see my way heading there, not afraid to fail and try
again and fail again and so on.
But of all, there are some common goals that I wanna share
with y’all. If you wanna take part, that’d be nice:
- Let’s use less plastic. Seriously. I beg you to insist to those minimarts cashiers not to wrap goods that you can carry with your bare hands with plastic, and if you see me bringing a single bar of snack with a plastic, hit me in the face.
- Find a brave, determined priest who can use his preach to get people do something. And lemme know who he is, I’ll come. That's the only thing that can help me get back to church as a routine. Or if you can’t, tell a lousy priest to read Pope Francis' blog / tweets. It's quite a shame that his revolutionary thoughts were not reflected at all in most of the preaches in local churches. My frustration with church lies in the fact that such a powerful institution always stay in the safe zone of the superficial preach. I mean, where is corruption? Condemnation to bribery? Warnings on radicalism? Domestic violence? Environmental choices? Dude, are you still gonna talk about the golden rule while turning a blind eye to the poor? And how come you talk about honesty while you know people do bribe or do some corruption shit and you never mention a word about it? Dear priest, if you do so, thou shall rot in heaven!
- Condemn the government for all the shit they made. Just condemn, dafuq solution. Listen, research, watch, promote their programs & obligations, push them to screen, analyze, and choose the best alternative of offered solutions. Many times, it’s not they’re incapable of finding a solution – can a solution deliberately corrupted and frauded be a solution in the end? And can a solution designed to give advantage to a single person while stripping the benefit from the others be a solution? Ah, and condemn your friends when they proudly telling ya about the bribe they gave yesterday to that judge.
Happy 2016! ;)
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